Why Do I keep Starting Over?

Fish Pose

Fish Pose

For many, September is a new beginning.  School begins in many parts of the country and offers a new start.  For students, teachers and parents everything is new again.  New pencils, papers and attitudes will hopefully make a difference this school year.

Since retirement from the cyclic start and stop of a school year I have continued to experience many do-overs. The most famous being New Year’s Day.  What a great opportunity to change my life!  This year I pledged to read one book at a time, lose weight, be more compassionate, practice prayer and yoga daily and write in my blog at least once a month.  Uh…I give myself a grade of I for incomplete.

Perhaps it is just in our nature.  Trying to become someone new and improved is not the same as someone moving towards wholeness.  I have been confusing the two.  And my tendency as you dear reader may experience is to just want to stay in my “comfort zone”  even if it is uncomfortable or unhealthy.

What is the answer?

I am still a seeker but these things I know.

  1. Change is hard and it takes consistent focus on the goal. “If you don’t know where you are going, you’ll end up someplace else”  Yogi Berra.
  2. It takes work and drive; “The point is this: the one who sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and the one who sow bountifully will also reap bountifully”   2 Cor 9:6
  3. It takes faith.  “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see” Hebrews 11:1
  4. It takes acceptance.  Sometimes the goals we set and our best intentions are interrupted by life.  Those unexpected twists and turns that make life a journey of learning can postpone or even halt what we viewed as “the goal”
  5. Faith in God who makes all things new.  No matter what our plans are, God can turn them upside down to teach us something better.  “And we know that all things work together and are for good to and for those who love God and are called according to his design and purpose” Romans 8:28

So today is a new day to start over.  Focused on my goals yet with the wisdom to know they could change I strive on.  I write today, read and practice yoga.  Realizing I get the opportunity to keep trying unlike the poor salmon headed upstream who only gets one chance.

God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”  Unknown

In Peace