I really enjoy musicals, I also enjoy walking in nature and spending time with my family who I love. These things are a part of who I am in only small measure. The deeper me, the one full of experiences in this life is sometimes more difficult to get to know. Sometimes I am full-out in the sun, clear and bright. But there are places, experiences within me that are beneath the water or hidden under the protective overgrowth of scars that keep me walking through life pretty happy. Every now and then though, when a bump in the road suddenly appears, I get thrown off kilter.
Breath is life, without it we literally can’t exist. Inspiration filling us revives as the exhalation emptying creates release. Our yoga classes always begin with the breath. Feeling and deepening the breath. Then to just be, to sit with the breath as we feel this body we inhabit. Noticing tension or heaviness we can breathe into these spaces with our imagination. We become fully present as we focus on breath and body. And then, sometimes, a wondrous awareness occurs. Emotions may rise, joy or sorrow, strength or fear and connections occur to let us know a deeper part of ourselves that has been hidden away, waiting to be revealed.
This week I had the opportunity to explore some of those places within as I moved from breath, to body, to awareness, in Gestalt Pastoral Care class. A new opening to grace as I shed tears that washed away debris and allowed light to reveal a new knowing of myself. The song from “The King and I” began running through my head this morning, “Getting to Know You” “Getting to know all about you, getting to like you, getting to hope you like me. Haven’t you noticed, suddenly I am bright and breezy. Because of all the beautiful and new, things I’m learning about you, day by day” Written by Oscar Hammerstein II in 1951, in the play a teacher is singing to her new and foreign students. But I sing it to myself with joy and anticipation to greet the child, teen, adult within me and uncover the beauty and mystery of my life. I learn that deep sorrow and pain can be a wonderful teacher and that I am never alone on the journey. We can walk the road together.
May you get to know and love yourself.